I think everyone of us did become a sign seeker once upon a time... I myself is a certified one and I guess everyone else's are (well, not everyone but most of the girls are.). I used to ask God for freaking impossible signs that somehow came true for whatever miracle that happened. And it came clear to me that I really have to let go of that sickening bad habit, that God has better plans for me.
It was a very sunny day, in fact even PAG-ASA forecasted that there'll be no chances of raining that day. So, yours truly with the fact that I am in a failing relationship asked God for a sign. Since it was a sunny day I thought of asking God to rain hard at exactly twelve noon and if it did I would let him go. I crossed my fingers in the hope that it wouldn't rain and to my dismay it did! (poor me...) But that incident didn't quite stop me it actually ended up me asking for another sign. That same day I told God that if I see a white rose I promise to let him go. I was so brave to say it because in our place it's really impossible to see a white rose because nobody in our neighborhood do plant roses, you would only see one unless somebody did buy you one. So, i waited until nightfall. I got bored from anticipating I turned on the television and watch the movie that was being played by a network that time. The scene was a guy was trying to make it up to her girlfriend and was trying to surprise her. A waiter came out with a covered dish and he was walking to the girl's direction and when finally he was there in front of the girl the waiter took off the dish cover and to my surprise it was a WHITE ROSE! and I can't say anything but Oh My God! A white rose. I don't really know what to feel but I know in my heart that it's something I am confused of continuing or not but which I am afraid to end.
That night I really thought it over and all I could remember was getting hurt and crying myself to sleep almost every night. There were really no good memories. All were just tears and heartaches and that's really when I decided to listen to God and let go.
Here's a song which I guess everyone can relate to especially to sign seekers like me. This was a one of the soundtrack from a short film anthology of Kasambuhay, Habambuhay entitled Sign Seeker. This is just the teaser of the great song of a great artist Armi Millare and I still am waiting for the full track, hope it comes out soon. Enjoy!
It was a very sunny day, in fact even PAG-ASA forecasted that there'll be no chances of raining that day. So, yours truly with the fact that I am in a failing relationship asked God for a sign. Since it was a sunny day I thought of asking God to rain hard at exactly twelve noon and if it did I would let him go. I crossed my fingers in the hope that it wouldn't rain and to my dismay it did! (poor me...) But that incident didn't quite stop me it actually ended up me asking for another sign. That same day I told God that if I see a white rose I promise to let him go. I was so brave to say it because in our place it's really impossible to see a white rose because nobody in our neighborhood do plant roses, you would only see one unless somebody did buy you one. So, i waited until nightfall. I got bored from anticipating I turned on the television and watch the movie that was being played by a network that time. The scene was a guy was trying to make it up to her girlfriend and was trying to surprise her. A waiter came out with a covered dish and he was walking to the girl's direction and when finally he was there in front of the girl the waiter took off the dish cover and to my surprise it was a WHITE ROSE! and I can't say anything but Oh My God! A white rose. I don't really know what to feel but I know in my heart that it's something I am confused of continuing or not but which I am afraid to end.
That night I really thought it over and all I could remember was getting hurt and crying myself to sleep almost every night. There were really no good memories. All were just tears and heartaches and that's really when I decided to listen to God and let go.
Here's a song which I guess everyone can relate to especially to sign seekers like me. This was a one of the soundtrack from a short film anthology of Kasambuhay, Habambuhay entitled Sign Seeker. This is just the teaser of the great song of a great artist Armi Millare and I still am waiting for the full track, hope it comes out soon. Enjoy!
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